Your False Pretense...

This song is especially for you...oh look I even put up a video for you to enjoy together with the song...you should know who you are...if you don't...then carry on in your dream world...your time will come... :)

Oh, it's time to let it go

The world's got a funny way of turning 'round on you

When a friend tries to stab you right in the face

Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew

Don't sweat it, {it was} set on false pretense

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change

And it doesn't seem likely to fade

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change

Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

It's sacrifice

False pretense you'll hurt again

Stop pretending to deny

False pretense you'll hurt again

All along you know you thought you got the best of me

{But} you were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face

I cannot believe you claimed you were my family

Don't sweat it - it's set on false pretense

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change

And it doesn't seem likely to fade

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change

Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

It's sacrifice

False pretense you'll hurt again

Stop pretending to deny

False pretense you'll hurt again

Oh, it's time to let it go

I can't seem to understand it how you turned out to be so cold

You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?

It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke...

It's sacrifice

False pretense you'll hurt again

Stop pretending to deny

False pretense you'll hurt again

So play the game until you run out

And play the game into my hand

P.S This is MY BLOG...therefore I have the freedom to write WHAT I FEEL...don't like it? DEAL WITH IT...cos you gotta learn that LIFE'S NOT FAIR HONEY... :P

these guys...are like the best in the world...oh and my Jia Yean is the most loved....hahaha

miss you alot Thirsty Hippo!!!!

Brainwaves

hello all...the past couple of days have been a sort of a "break" for me...a break from reality that is...isoltion in HQ NCC felt good as I was more in control of the way things went on around me. So, a little prequel to whats been happening since 4th August till today...booked in to HQ NCC for Camp Steel...appointed Conducting Officer and Company Commander for the camp, however, had to leave early on thursday as a return to my alma mater was required. NDP rehearsal was really pressuring, but it was a refreshing change of environment. The innocent, protected walls of BHS as compared to the uncompromising world beyond the gates. The NDP rehearsal started really sketchily...but after tireless practice runs by the cadets from all the UGs, i'm glad to say that we ended thursday on a high note.

Woke up really late today...was supposed to meet ARNOLD at 7am at BHS but i woke up at 7am!! That is FAIL kau tau!! So rushed to get ready and cabbed my ass down to BHS...luckily flag raising was later than usual. The ceremony was impressive with the flag bearers doing a great job. Celebrations were quite simple-just sang national day songs..and no thanks to RYO who invited the "SPECIAL GUEST" to sing in front of the entire school...hahaha...damn paiseh kau tau...fast forward to parade...

Seeing the UGs forming up on their positions really jangled my nerves. A couple of words from the Parade Officer In Charge (me..hehe) and off to their respective form up points...i wasnt expecting much, but they really left me in awe with a flawless parade. It was so perfect that it literally gave me goosebumps...the saluting of the during the parade march past brought a sense of pride that cannot be described by words.

After parade, lunched with my favourite junior awesomes at Pizza Hut...as usual tears flowed freely - tears of laughter that is...hahaha..."SIR MY SHIT GOT BLOOD...MY SHIT GOT BLOOD!!!" my all time favourite girl (JIA YEAN) came after her chem test...it felt really good to be my self again with these guys...i could leave my worries behind for a couple of hours and laugh from my heart...i love y'all alright....hahaha...but still...."YOU ALL FAIL KAU TAU!!!"

Oh well...the fun's over...now its back to reality....damn...till next time...

- CICAKMAN -

Signing out...

P.S: To all outgoing BHS cadets...congrats on the wonderful performance!

where'd you go?

When it gets FUCKING FRUSTRATING

Hey all..a little warning before start...this post ain't gonna be pretty...it gonna have lots of profanities..and its gonna be a real angry post...so i suggest..if you aren't Jia Yean, Keenan, Pearls, Jasmin, Adilah, Arnold, Nura, Hafeez, Sara, Nadiah, Ella, Khai or anyone whose genuinely interested in my shit...and you can't help...its best to stop reading here...

Well..3rd August 2009...a really fucked up day...well...as some of you may know..recent events have really fucked my original plans for today...and i would like to say thank fucking you to all those who contributed to this mess...one fucking month...one fucking month people...i planned every fucking detail..from the biggest fucking happening to the smallest fucking detail...i fucking told you thinking that you could help but what happened? You fucked MY plans insteadyou fucking knew that i was already doing it and u fucked it all up with your nice plan instead....that was real nice alright...real fucking nice...so that really pissed the fuck out of me over the weekend..but..i still tried to save the situation with a PLAN B, trying to fucking put the fact behind me...but NO...all of you HAD to come in and fuck it up YET AGAIN...and this time...YOU PEOPLE FUCKING KNEW!!!!! The nerve of you...let's get one thing straight...I'm not mad...I'm confused...I'm hurt...I don't fucking understand what you guys have in mind...what? you wanna look like the good friends and put me up as the useless one? you wanna be in her good books and put me up as the insignificant character? you guys wanna be the ones who care while im the cheapskate one? Is that fucking it?! Cos if it is...you guys fucking won alright...y'all officially fucked me, my plans and my feelings not once...but twice in a row...yeah...thats a score of

2-0...happy? i hope so...if any of you happens to read this and thinks that im being groundless..or I'm out of my tree...let me know...cos to me...it looks like you guys aren't bothered about what others may feel...or what others may think...has it ever occured? Or were y'all too busy thinking "hey let's fuck him up"...so much for friends...so much for cliques...if you guys cared...you would have seen.. you would have known what i was trying to do...instead of being so fucking shallow and fucking it all up this way...it might seem a like a small issue to you guys...but to me...you guys are a real insensitive lot...i wont say anything out...i wont do anything...but i'll let you know...u managed to fuck me up more than ever...you hear me? GOOD JOB!!

I'll fuck off now...

PS:buddy..i'm sorry i didnt do much for your birthday...i tried my best...but it crumbled one by one...everything...im really really sorry...it's not that i couldnt be bothered...but...i wasnt given a chance to...im really really sorry...

JIAYEAN!!!

PEOPLE ARE BEING MEAN AGAIN!!!!!

I NEED HUGGGGG!!!!!

*TEARS IN EYES*