When it gets FUCKING FRUSTRATING

Hey all..a little warning before start...this post ain't gonna be pretty...it gonna have lots of profanities..and its gonna be a real angry post...so i suggest..if you aren't Jia Yean, Keenan, Pearls, Jasmin, Adilah, Arnold, Nura, Hafeez, Sara, Nadiah, Ella, Khai or anyone whose genuinely interested in my shit...and you can't help...its best to stop reading here...

Well..3rd August 2009...a really fucked up day...well...as some of you may know..recent events have really fucked my original plans for today...and i would like to say thank fucking you to all those who contributed to this mess...one fucking month...one fucking month people...i planned every fucking detail..from the biggest fucking happening to the smallest fucking detail...i fucking told you thinking that you could help but what happened? You fucked MY plans insteadyou fucking knew that i was already doing it and u fucked it all up with your nice plan instead....that was real nice alright...real fucking nice...so that really pissed the fuck out of me over the weekend..but..i still tried to save the situation with a PLAN B, trying to fucking put the fact behind me...but NO...all of you HAD to come in and fuck it up YET AGAIN...and this time...YOU PEOPLE FUCKING KNEW!!!!! The nerve of you...let's get one thing straight...I'm not mad...I'm confused...I'm hurt...I don't fucking understand what you guys have in mind...what? you wanna look like the good friends and put me up as the useless one? you wanna be in her good books and put me up as the insignificant character? you guys wanna be the ones who care while im the cheapskate one? Is that fucking it?! Cos if it is...you guys fucking won alright...y'all officially fucked me, my plans and my feelings not once...but twice in a row...yeah...thats a score of

2-0...happy? i hope so...if any of you happens to read this and thinks that im being groundless..or I'm out of my tree...let me know...cos to me...it looks like you guys aren't bothered about what others may feel...or what others may think...has it ever occured? Or were y'all too busy thinking "hey let's fuck him up"...so much for friends...so much for cliques...if you guys cared...you would have seen.. you would have known what i was trying to do...instead of being so fucking shallow and fucking it all up this way...it might seem a like a small issue to you guys...but to me...you guys are a real insensitive lot...i wont say anything out...i wont do anything...but i'll let you know...u managed to fuck me up more than ever...you hear me? GOOD JOB!!

I'll fuck off now...

PS:buddy..i'm sorry i didnt do much for your birthday...i tried my best...but it crumbled one by one...everything...im really really sorry...it's not that i couldnt be bothered...but...i wasnt given a chance to...im really really sorry...